I'm feeling better.
So other than being lazy and sick for the pass few days, I've absolutely did nothing. Nothing productive at all. Some very ill male was sitting very closely to me during one of my classes and keeps coughing/breathing/sneezing/spreading bacteria all over my face. I am the type of person that NEVER gets sick. Not even when my whole family is having a little summer cold. Nope. Not I. But this guy's virus/illness or whatever he has, totally got into my system. I was finally sick for the first time in about...1 or 2 year(s)? (But it only lasted for like 2 days) Recently I have been very demotivated to do stuff. A part of me wants to give up because of undesirable results and another part keeps telling me to strive for excellence. I don't wanna give up but its hard (since the results aren't that great). I'll try. Just because its the right thing to do. Watching "legally blonde" yesterday was an inspiration for me. In the movie, nobody believed Elle Woods and she totally owned. I feel like even if I don't succeed as much as other people, as long as I tried my best, I'm still a winner (Yes, I am).
Philip (Yea, you) and I had an argument/dispute last night because of how much we've changed during the 9 months that we were together. It's settled but we're still building up our relationship =]]. It's almost like, when your with someone for that long, you don't feel like theres sparks anymore because it just turns into a "habit" (like Becky would call it) or a part of your life. I dunno, but for me, the dating process is the most exciting part of...being together. I like having sparks. I like having butterflies in my stomach. I like being complimented and be flushed with the comment. I like waiting by the phone when he calls. I really do. In order to re-visit what I felt before, we're re-starting/re-dating all over again. Some things are better the second time around. Haha.
About Feeling Bad.
So remember how I felt bad for someone who was my friend and I screwed her over?
Today, Becky, Viv, and Herman send me this site where you CAN check whoever deleted you off of their list: and apparantly she has deleted me off of her list. I feel stupid, I feel so stupid for having this guilty feeling that haunts me while she easily clicks "delete". I mean, what I did wasn't something bad. I caught her cheating, usually cheating isn't a big issue with me because everyone does it. But she is CHEATING everyone in the class. The whole class saw it happen and she told the teacher an imagination of what she hope could've happened. To me, thats low. I know marks is important in Grade 12 but common, don't you have any honor? and what about dignity? I mean I've always thought of her being the sweetest girl and a faithful and honest Christian but it was proven wrong. Like I've said before, marks make some people crazy. As well, I screwed other people that was in the same boat as her and they didn't delete me off of their list (and we still talk)! So, as of today, I've decided to stop feeling bad for something rightful that I did. Whatever.
School is starting in 2 days, I still have a lot of work to do before it starts :S. I feel so relaxed but at the same time I think I didn't accomplish much things. I slacked off on homework :S. I also have to apologize because I had to pick homework over going out with my friends. It's a hard decision but I promised myself I can't screw up this semester like the last. I have to work hard for what I want. So I'm going to go work now ;).
EDIT: for those of you who wants the site to check whoever has deleted YOUUU off of their list there it is http://get-messenger.com/?en
Happy 11th Month.
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MARCH BREAK II
Sunday started off at 8.45am. Phil picked me up and we went to eat breakfast together. We searched almost everywhere to find ourselves a place that offered breakfast like
Flying Saucer located at Niagara Falls.
Uncle Joe's Family Restaurant on
Main Street looked and also tasted good but however, it cost more. After the most filling breakfast, we headed for Ontario Science Center.
SCIENCE CENTER
We also watched "Everest" in the Shoppers Drug Mart OMNIMAX theatre.
But Phil fell asleep.
The Weston Family Innovation Center
Here, we made our own shoes. We tried to imitate UGGZ Australia Boots. After we made it, we came back and commented on how beautiful the shoes were.
And also the Aging Machine. This machine will show you how you will look in 50 years. And I will look like a witch. haha.
Overall it was a good visit.
MARCH BREAK I
After school ended on Thursday at 3:00pm,
Phil and I went to Markville Mall right away to get ourselves a Nintendo DS Lite. We searched through Wal-Mart and EB Games but surprisingly BOTH stores were sold out of it. Finally, we went to Best Buy. Very luckily, there was one left. We got it at a discounted price of 119.99 (Retail Price: 149.99 Wal-Mart Price: 147.99) because it was an opened item. However, we checked the game system before we bought it and there was absolutely nothing wrong with it.
At the same time, Becky and Joanna were making their way to my condo. They came and invaded my place because they wanted to play pool/billiard, badminton and swimming.
I also caught up watching all the reality shows that I had to miss during weekdays because of my heavy-semester. I watched
The Search for The Next Doll (I like Melissa R),
Dancelife (Kenny is so cute),
Real World Denver and Austin, and
Road Rules.
So far my break has been very very relaxing.
I'm so excited b/c tmr I'm going to the Science Center. =]]
Pathetic
Today when I came home from school. I emptied out my backpack. I took out all my heavy-duty textbooks and giantic binders, but one was missing. My blue binder. The one that I have EVERYTHING in [all the important stuff anyway]. And thus, I freaked out. I threw the biggest tantrum of 2007. I cried, I whined, I complained and I yelled. I blamed my boyfriend, accusing him of being the source of this misfortune. He had to actually go to the school TWICE to help me look for my binder. After what it seemed like forever, he called and told me that he had found my binder in one of my classes. Wow. I'm pathetic.
Today had its ups and downs. I wasn't too happy in my 1st period but was extremely happy in my last. Its pretty nuts how much 2 digit numbers(%) that your labelled with, affects you.
I also found out 2 more things that bothered me.
i) People who aren't happy unless they get 101% in their classes. People who think getting 99.5% is a horrible mark but many people would die for that mark (including me).
ii) People who lose their sense of individuality when they're in a relationship. I don't know if I am in that category, I hope not. You know its obsession when everything one does is all about the other person. I'm not saying theres anything wrong with that but I don't support that kind of lifestyle.
Thanks again
Phil.
Headache.
I can't wait till March Break starts (only 3 days of school left!=]]). Thinking that theres 3 days left makes me not concentrate fully on school. My friends and I have a lot of plans for this break, hopefully it won't be a flop. If everything goes well, heres my schedule:
i) SKATING (believe it or not, I actually have skates)
ii) Science Center, baby.
I can't really remember the last time I went to the science center. I think it was in grade 10, we had a science center field trip and watched a 3D movie in the DOME theatre, which was totally cool. I feel like a geek because it was my idea to go to the science center, lol. (but it is really fun)
Oh yea, I have a headache, probably because I'm thinking too much. About things that bothered me today. I hate it when I sit down on the toilet bowl and its wet. (I don't really wanna know the liquid is-really gross) I hate it that I gained weight. I know I'm not super fat but don't tell me I'm skinny (coz I'm not). I hate it when I get this guilty feeling about something I did. (Even though, if given a second chance, I would still do the same/right thing.) But the feeling that you screwed someone over is nottt the best feeling. I hate numbers, I hate math and I hate everything about Calculus. =((
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heehee.
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Starting Blogger!
I'm starting blogger because:
1) I want a record of what goes on
2) I'm bored
Mostly because of the second reason I think =P
Anyways, I'm gonna go nerd [chem & calc] I'll write later.
<3 Nancy
